Can’t make up my mind!

New year, new start right?

Well i am trying to blog again….but I have changed my home. Not really great for trying to have readers but I am trying to find a home that allows for easy access and easy up keep in my crazy land. If you still want to follow in my adventures comes see me at

I am trying to post regularly as part my new years resolutions. So far so good, so come follow if can! 



I have and haven’t been doing good this new year and it really all depends on the measuring stick you use to measure my success. I have not been recording what I have been eating and I have not been recording and reporting my weight. I have been more active though.

We went for a nice walk on the weekend, it was cold and icey. The Mr let me walk ahead to get a little bit of fast past walking in.

It is a real battle for me. I wish it was easy. I haven’t been feeling the best lately and that is not helping with the fight. I don’t really feel like excercising and when I get hungry I don’t feel like using the energy to make something too healthy.

One day I do fine with it the next not so much.

I guess the goal is to have more good days then bad!

This Moment

this moment
A Friday ritual inspired by SoulMama. A single photo – no words – capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

If you’re inspired to do the same, leave a link to your ‘moment’ in the comments for all to find and see


I have gained weight!
This is a really big struggle in my life. I only seem to lose weight through deprivation and I cant do deprivation. I am really struggling to figure out my reasoning behind losing weight. It can’t be for others it has to be because I want to lose weight, because I care about me.
What I want is to be comfortable in my skin, comfortable in my clothes. Accept my body for what it is.
Gaining weight is not what I wanted, its going to be a long road.
Do you have any good hints on accepting yourself? Being healthy?

New Years Resolution

Usually I don’t do New Years Resolution, it’s not my ‘thing.’ This last year I ahve been really struggling with myself and how to make this ‘better life’ I keep trying to acheive. I decided to very quietly promise myself that this is the year to start taking care of my body.

Last year I made some progress to better my mind and emotions, 2013 will be the year of the body or as a friend and I have joked the year of the barbell!

I am not going to do anything drastic, no fad diets, no insane workouts….no time! My plan is to eat healthy and add exercise where I can. I am tired with this struggle and it is time to be honest, brutally honest. I am tracking what I am eating and trying to stay within a caloric range. I am hoping with time I will add exercise and activity without effort and that I can see what my trends in eating are and change them where possible.

Starting weight 205lbs.

New Year, new start part deux?

I’m not sure, I keep trying this better life/ new vision thing only to be redirected, distracted and rerouted. I guess I have been unable to find what fits for me, what will work. Old habits die hard.

Between moving home, being a mother of two, wife, daughter, friend, time to better my self gets put to the last item on my to do list. I have restarted the process yet again to better myself, to attempt to take care of myself before others. Why not attempt to blog about it! I am crazy, I am sure of that fact. I need to find a way to be accountable to this process.

I am going to try some new things, some new attempts, new ways to approach the same problem. I can’t keep doing the same thing and expect a different result.